The Tale of Being Laid Off

So I have not posted in ages. Well I certainly will now!

Let me tell you how this all went down, the laid off/firing thing. So I was out of the room but my phone rang around 5:30 Thursday afternoon. I check the voicemail and its the temp agency, so I am like "great." The then girl is like "hi the HR guy from your company called and said tomorrow is your last day. They still want you to go in; also they said you are a great employee, just it was a budget issue, and there were some other issues, like I guess a few instances of lack of detail and they didn't really feel you were excited about your job."

OK so let me clarify some shit, I had a performance review about 3 weeks ago- it was brought up that I missed a few things on the galleys- but like 5 out of 200 that I have worked on. Its called human error bitches, and it wasn't major it was like "and" instead of "&" on 3 pages of a cookbook. This is why the galleys go through 2 people, I m the first set of eyes, my boss was the other. You know makes sense, b/c after awhile you need fresh eyes to look at this shit.

But my favorite "You weren't excited about your job." Um.... no shit. How could I be? At the performance review I asked them point blank if they knew the assignments end date or if the position would ever go perm. They never answered the first part saying "oh its the nature of temp work." I am so sorry, but if I was someone with a family they could not get away with that, but b/c I am out of college and "green" then ya, they will pull this crap. The next part "would the job go perm?" was answered "well the earliest we would even think about making it perm is 2010."

With that in mind how could I be excited? I knew either I was getting let go wheneves or I was being strung along until 2010? But I didn't ever say anything about it, I just kept working and was extra attentive when I finalized the galleys. I mean I hated my job but I was not stupid enough to bite that hand that fed me, I knew I had to stay in their good graces. Then I saw the publisher in my bosses office- and her lights were on, usually she just has one little sketchy lamp in the back of her cave, which i though was weird.

So yea their reason for lack of motivation reminded me of this:

But I do think everything happens for a reason, i would not have had the balls to leave myself. So this is the push i think i needed, i m looking at different web/graphic design programs for the fall and stuff. And finally I feel like i will be able to read books again- I haven't been able to finish a book in under 3 months since I started, I am reading a book now that I have been reading since January. They stole my love of books and reading from me- which is not cool.

So yea, thinking positively :)